I am bad beauty blogger.
Bad bad bad.
Ok not so much bad as busy and stressed.
I don't mention it often, but like many other people (maybe even some of you guys reading now?) I have problems with depression, insomnia and anxiety. Things things effect every element of my life, down to if I feel 'safe' leaving the house, to being awake for days on end, to trying not to burn the house down when I cook dinner as my memory is terrible, to sitting in floods of tears for what feel like the silliest of reasons.
Lately things had been getting a bit on top of me, I was overwhelmed on my course, I study with the Open University (I think I mentioned that before, their courses are correspondence based and it has helped built up my confidence - and my brain, haha!), somehow I managed to sign up for 3 modules that over lapped one after the other... genius Claire... so between assignments, a horrible online group project, and trying to stay ahead of things as much as I could, I had to abandon my blog for a bit.
I've been feeling pretty guilty about it as I had been sent some lovely products to review, and so far, not a stitch had been written about them, I had photos but I was lacking the words. Then the fact I had no words stressed me out more, and I got to the point where I couldn't even log into Blogger or the email account associated with this blog... definitely a burying my head in the sand kinda month... or two.
I just needed some time out.
So, I took a step back and tried to organise myself, I have a box of things to review in front of me, and there's no dread, I'm really looking forward to doing it, I think I just needed a bit of time out!
If there's one thing I've realised, it's that this blog has definitely boosted my confidence, I love the feedback I receive it's wonderful to know people are reading, and I want to say thank you for taking the time to click on my posts and read them, as silly as it may seem you've made a big difference. Ok... I'll stop now, as I can see myself getting all sentimental, and no one needs to see that!
Love,
Claire x.