I am bad beauty blogger.
Bad bad bad.
Ok not so much bad as busy and stressed.
I don't mention it often, but like many other people (maybe even some of you guys reading now?) I have problems with depression, insomnia and anxiety. Things things effect every element of my life, down to if I feel 'safe' leaving the house, to being awake for days on end, to trying not to burn the house down when I cook dinner as my memory is terrible, to sitting in floods of tears for what feel like the silliest of reasons.
Lately things had been getting a bit on top of me, I was overwhelmed on my course, I study with the Open University (I think I mentioned that before, their courses are correspondence based and it has helped built up my confidence - and my brain, haha!), somehow I managed to sign up for 3 modules that over lapped one after the other... genius Claire... so between assignments, a horrible online group project, and trying to stay ahead of things as much as I could, I had to abandon my blog for a bit.
I've been feeling pretty guilty about it as I had been sent some lovely products to review, and so far, not a stitch had been written about them, I had photos but I was lacking the words. Then the fact I had no words stressed me out more, and I got to the point where I couldn't even log into Blogger or the email account associated with this blog... definitely a burying my head in the sand kinda month... or two.
I just needed some time out.
So, I took a step back and tried to organise myself, I have a box of things to review in front of me, and there's no dread, I'm really looking forward to doing it, I think I just needed a bit of time out!
If there's one thing I've realised, it's that this blog has definitely boosted my confidence, I love the feedback I receive it's wonderful to know people are reading, and I want to say thank you for taking the time to click on my posts and read them, as silly as it may seem you've made a big difference. Ok... I'll stop now, as I can see myself getting all sentimental, and no one needs to see that!
Love,
Claire x.
Hi Claire!
ReplyDeleteI am behind in my blog reading and just saw this. Just wanted to let you know I get it. I have struggled with depression for YEARS and recently have added anxiety and insomnia into the mix thanks to a faulty thyroid. Fun times! I haven't posted to my beauty blog since July! Lots of pictures, but when I think about sitting down and writing posts I just freeze up.
Hang in there with classes - this may be a rough semester but it will settle down soon, right?
Anyway, take care and don't sweat the blog.